I'm a human pincushion... but all is on track!

This morning was a little emotional for me. I had several things on my plate. The biggest though was my first ultrasound and blood work. I was nervous that things wouldn't be where they needed to be and our calendar would be off. I really want to stay 100% on the calendar if possible (Even though the nurse said most people don't got 100% to the date) because I already have all my days off of work requested and placed in my schedule at work. It may be difficult to get these moves it may not. I think it depends on the mood of the day sometimes at my work place.

I don't know how the blood work came out but the ultrasound was just where it needs to be. Lots of small follicles on each of my ovaries.  So now we move on to the next step. Reduce the injections I was taking to once a day and start a new type of injection twice a day. This injection is the one they say can make me moody. So far, no side effects from the first injection the nurse gave me this morning. I'm really hoping that it stays that way for the entire time that I have to take this medication. So in this phase I will be taking three injections (I feel like a human pincushion...) As well as the 5 pills I was already taking and then add on top of that one more pill that I have to take twice a day. Right now I'm just trying to keep my emotions in check and not get to nervous about everything that is going on. Ultrasound and blood work number two is next wednesday.  Hopefully all those little follicles are starting to fatten up and grow to nice mature eggs for the next step.

Here's to everything going and staying on the right track! Till next time.

First Ultrasound and blood work tomorrow

So, I have been taking Lupron Injections twice a day since 7/17, as well as many different pills. Tomorrow is my first ultrasound and blood work to check and make sure my ovaries are looking good and that my estrodile levels are where they need to be.  I'm just hoping that everything goes well and we can stick to the scheduled calendar as close as possible!

Tomorrow also starts more injections and more pills. The nurse said these new injections might make me cranky (I think she was using that as a nice word to describe how I might feel with these injections).

Will post tomorrow after the appointment and after I know that everything is on track.

Injections and weight loss, or lack there of...

So the injections has started, as of Sunday I have been taking two injections a day along with 6 other pills. Giving myself the injections isn't as bad as I thought it would be, just in and out of the sin. Haven't had any real side effects so that is good to. This is the 4th day of injections. I will go to the doctors office on the 29th to get a scan and get some blood work done. Then, if everything is okay with the scan and blood work I will start another injection... This one Jonathan will have to give to me but he has done that before on other cycles so that shouldn't be an issue. There is still just a lot of waiting and anticipating...

As far as the weight loss part of the subject... My mom had heard about this 17 day diet from some ladies at the gym, she decided to do it and she said her clothing is much looser after the first 17 days. So, Jonathan and I have started it as well. We are on cycle one right now which doesn't give you a lot of options but I haven't cheated once and I'm very proud of myself. I've lost about 8 pounds so far but that was all before I started taking the fertility injections.... Today I got back on the scale for the first time in several days... and NOTHING, no loss of any kind. I'm following this to a "T" and now I'm not losing anything?!?!? WTF!!! I have to think it's the injections because that is the only thing that has changed. I really though this was going to be a good thing because I haven't been able to loose weight forever and now that I was these medications might be preventing me from losing any more? I thought this diet would be a good thing right now but now today I'm just sad that I haven't lost anything over the past few days. Jonathan isn't even following it to a T and he just keeps loosing and loosing and now I'm just sitting at the same place. Hopefully on Saturday I will see some more loss otherwise I'm not sure what I will do I will definitely be pissed off b/c I was doing such a good job and I'm not cheating at all and as I said before, no loss what so ever for the last 4... Oh well. I guess if anything at least I am eating better. I just thought that the weight loss before the transfer would be a great thing and now I'm at a stand still already...

Holy medications, Batman!

So this is it. It's almost time to start the IVF cycle. There is a lot of emotion that is going around in my head and in my heart. I'm so excited to get this started and so ready to see if it is going to work. I think to myself, "how can this not work? The egg will be fertilized and will be implanted into the uterus... How could the pregnancy not stick???" But on the other hand I think "what if it doesn't work? What if I go through all of this time and energy and emotion and injections and pills and I still can't get pregnant?" I try to think the positive way that this has to work, everything will be fertilized and implanted and keep away from the negative thoughts of it not working but as the time to start all the medication gets closer and closer I start to get my anxious..

Currently I am still on birth control pills letting the ovaries rest. We have an appointment with the nurse on the 13th to learn how to take all the injections and pills and how to follow the calendar for the cycle. The medications look so overwhelming and I hope that I am able to give myself the injections and do them correctly and at the right times. I don't want to mess any of this up. It's true that my insurance is paying for this which is nice because the medications above cost me just over 100 dollars out of pocket and if my insurance didn't cover this it would have cost thousands of dollars and I wouldn't even have this picture to post because we wouldn't even be doing IVF, but I still don't want to mess anything up.

Per out calendar that the nurse made up I will start taking all the medications on July 17th, just a week after our 2 year wedding anniversary.  Starting on the 29th I will go in for several ultrasounds to check and see how the ovaries are developing. I will go about every 3 days until the 8th of August. Hopefully everything is developed and looking good on the 8th and then Jonathan can give me the HCG shot to induce ovulation of all the follicles and on the 10th I can go in for my egg retrieval. On the 15th hopefully everything will be fertilized and developing correctly and we can transfer the two best embryos back and make some babies.

I rally hope that this works, if it doesn't I wont be able to help thinking everything for the past year and more really has been my fault. I mean, I am the woman, I should be able to carry children. Even though the previous medications I have been on have solved my ovulation issues I still haven't been able to get pregnant. If this doesn't work I know that it will not be good for the depressed I have had in the past during our trying to conceive time. I just wont be able to help thinking what is wrong with me? But I hope that it doesn't get to that point and that by the end of August we will have some great news, a positive pregnancy test and maybe even twins!

I wish the 17th would come fasters so we can get this started!